I hope you are not a victim of the targeting nor persecuted, but if you are, consider reading some of my articles and get my book Persecuted but not Forsaken at Amazon Books (Marshall Lee); which will probably show you whether you and your family have been targeted covertly throughout their lives. It took me years to put this together, but it should help you quickly tell if you’re a life long victim. May God bless you and have mercy on you.
I also have devotions printed weekly in The Loris Scene, https://www.myhorrynews.com/eedition_loris_scene/
Just type my name or devotions in the search box should get you there.