I hope you are not a victim of persecution, but if you are, consider reading some of my articles and get my book Persecuted but not Forsaken at Amazon Books (Marshall Lee); which will probably show you whether you and your family have been covertly persecuted. For spiritual help, get God’s Divine Help also at Amazon
May God bless you and have mercy on you.
I also have devotions printed weekly in The Loris Scene, https://www.myhorrynews.com/eedition_loris_scene/
Just type my name or devotions in the search box should get you there.